TO THE BHAUKAAL PURUSH

we were both idiots when i first saw you..
i close my eyes...
and the flashback starts...
you're standing there..
in the canteen in burger air..

see mosquito bites...
see stale pantry..debate banners..
i see you blabbering about sachin tendulkar..
and little did i know...

that you were swappu..
you were going to be my best friend..
and then PD said..
stay away from delhi girls..
i was laughing and choking..
somewhat ho ho ho ho...

and i said..
swappu take me somewhere i can find MR. S.V.M..
i'll be waiting..all there's left is his girlfriend to be dumped..
you'll be bobby and i'll be michael jackson...
it's a silly story...swappu just say yesh...done ;)

i scream out when i see a call from you..
we never keep quiet ..cause we're already brain dead ..they already know...
so close your eyes..
and escape sanity forever and smile...

cause you were swappu..
i was THE BESTEST DEBATOR ((he he ha ha ha))
and then that PD said ..stay away from delhi girls
you were anyway losing to me..
i was laughing as you spoke on your turn..
and i said..

swappu take me somewhere i can find MR. S.V.M..
i'll be waiting..all there's left is his girlfriend to be dumped..
you'll be bobby and i'll be michael jackson...
it's a silly story...swappu just say yesshhh done...;)

swappu.. now save me..
they try to get me see the REAL 0_0
this world is difficult.. and feels euucckk...
i am so afraid.. and that MONSTROUS mess..
it is just our silly story na..
swappu make me say YESH :(


you got tired of waiting..
but hey i called exactly at 1 am..
you're bhaukaal was fading
when my torra took over the town..
and i said...

swappu please save me..
i have' been feeling SHO SHO SHO ALONE...
i keep studying.. but mr. maths is SHO hard to come
is there absolutely nothing in my head.. i dunno how to think..

you knelt to the ground and told me about the story of that ring..

and said.. dian laugh now
you look better that way ..just bhaukaal
i love you..and i know you know thats just all
i talked to the darn god.. go study some physics
this is A HAPPY STORY... say yesh yesh yesh yesh... :p


oh oh oh oh
cause' we were both idiots when i first saw you


((btw bhai.. i made some stuff from your pics... lmao.. bhai bhai bhai... tumhey mujh par bharosa hota hee kyun hey))

and dear god..may MR. S.V.M and his girlfriend stay strong forever and ever..
may god bless all these kids.. just a silly song.. please god..please please know tht

10 things...

10 things…


I love

1. Family ((includes my angels and animals))
2. emotions
3. honesty
4. payal mam
5. cricket
6. crying :p
7. making a difference
8. being wrong
9. singing
10. dancing.. like just dancing ...and dancing in the most carefree manner.. with my hands swaying.. hair gone haywire.. jumping and shouting...

i believe in

1. karma
2. astrology/tarot ((staunch believer))
3. being honest no matter what price one has to pay..odium esp. should be naked
4. lying for someone's happiness is better than a truth ((i know contradictory but something i strongly believe in))
5. expressing myself.. ((makes me assure myself..i live))
6. somethings do last forever.. like love :)
7. girls and guys can be just friends.. ((yes and very good friends :) ))
8. bowing down in front of people you is always worth it
9. those who hate me..should know i am sorry...
10. not everything happens for the best


i am thinking of write now...

1. i have my microphone's puff on my finger and it looks silly.. and i am kissing it every 2 seconds
2. why do some people matters so very much without one justifiable reason..
3. i should die before any of my loved ones
4. the puff is now on my little finger... :p... and i am making weird signs.. aww.. rahul kee yaad aa gayi.. i love him so much.. esp. his love you messages.
5. palash sen.. i can actually marry a guy with a voice like that
6. why was vishu bhaiya talking about my marriage ..woh bhee har doosra sentence -_-
7. i love vishu bhaiya like loons.. like he is everything i wish to be.. actually a mixture of him and taru bhai
8. the puff back to my pointing finger.. hey ricky ponting.. god.. i hate him hey..i heard lee's girl misses him.. hey i am glad i am single.. and hey.. i plan to remain so forever..esp. with brothers like mine :p
9. i am joining a gym soon.. i don't even know why..
10. the puff's in my mouth :p


WHAT DO I DO NEXT ???

The sky is falling

Howling orphan, moaning widow...
A shattered glass window...

Look up there...
The heaven just lost her love...
Falling down her corpse... these blame-worthy drops...

A streak of light...
Separation stained thunders...
On her knees now... this hapless whore...

Blood see-through, tears unfathomed...
Grey of mascara blackening fear...
Her folded limbs... she knows no reason...

The sky is falling...
No monsoon...
The sky is falling...
A cloudburst...

Exhausted bride, unborn child...
A tamed tide's wild...

Tresses spread across...
A carcass raped recent...
Diminishing light of life... Evitable ends encroach

A freak's disguise
Some silent scourge stills...
Misted fading vision... difficult to choose one he...

Veins outlined silver, white wails wronged...
Rouge outdone reddening disgust
Her devastated dreams... She lost her rhyme...

The sky is falling...
No monsoon...
The sky is falling...
A cloudburst...

A blood-stained aisle...
He never looked back...
Her lover...the untamed sovereign
The cheater... An apparent ocean

Hidden beneath the obvious...
Veiled under the visible...
Her womb... the cloud...
The father... an unseen marine

A wronged rejoice...
He isn't who he seems...
Her deity...the feral fiend...
The swindler...a perceived devotee

Buried below the witnessed...
Masked behind the major...
Her cry... his separation...
The maker... now destroying...


"She is too weak to fight back...too heavy to face another self-rage...so she wipes out the signs of unison...in ways to ensure it's existence is never believed...so she tears off a million pieces and throws each with a curse… a curse of her self being...and she does it for us to celebrate.. her agony.. her pain "

The sky was falling...
You grew sucking her blood...
The sky was falling...
You misunderstood...